Let me answer that question with another question: why are we here?
I have hungered for the answer to this existential enquiry my whole life. From a young age, I watched the night sky with rapt wonder and quietly asked: ‘What’s out there? How far does it go? What is our place in it all? Is there more?’ Every clear night felt like I was witnessing magic. I was obsessed with space and the stars and this vast, mystical world just out of reach. But witnessing the domain of the moon and stars also filled me with unease, and I sensed my littleness from a young age, too. Observing the seemingly endless expanse above, I felt small and insignificant. I believe that feeling from childhood seeded the existential crises that I was to experience later in life. It also bored in to me a deep and unwavering will to seek out ultimate truth.
Fast forward to 2020 and Undefind Life is born. Born out of the remembrance of ultimate truth. The truth that I sought as a I child and that humans for millennia have been seeking in scriptures and science and ritual and meditation. The truth that all things, all beings, all occupants of this material world are connected by the immaterial. Because the life force that binds this world into being – God, source, the universe, consciousness, the holy spirit, ultimate intelligence, the divine, energy (the semantics are unimportant) – lives through everything and everyone. Realising this truth - feeling this truth - set me free.
We are souls, cut from the cloth of consciousness, having a human experience. Not only that, but we chose this human experience, along with the many others we've had in the past. This world of form is little more than a playground for the soul; this 3D plane of duality and polarity allows the formless to experience itself through form. When we take on a human form, we also experience the distinct (but illusory) sense of separateness that comes with it - and each experience life serves us is an opportunity to journey back to oneness consciousness. Sure, we might get bumped and bruised along the way - but that's how we learn and grow. I feel this concept is most profoundly abridged by the beautiful Australian aboriginal proverb:
"We are all visitors to this time, this place. We are just passing through. Our purpose here is to observe, to learn, to grow, to love… and then we return home."
I feel compelled to share this truth with others. It is not so much a dream or desire but a necessity; sharing this truth feels essential to my life purpose and journey. We are living during a critical juncture in human evolution. Humanity is awakening, and that which has been unconsciously perpetuated for thousands of years - the shadows, traumas, wounds and horrors of unawareness - are being brought to light to be seen and released. It's going to look a little messy for a while. And so Undefind Life has come into fruition now because my readiness to share has coincided with a universal call for the expansion of light during a time of transitory darkness. I am merely another soul answering that call.
Why Undefind Life?
Now, in case you were wondering, Undefind Life is a deliberate misspelling; I liked that when written alongside one another, 'Undefind' and 'Life' would produce undefindlife. This idea feels central to the Undefind Life mission because most people aren’t really living. Not by my definition, anyway.
You see, since early childhood (and arguably, from the time in the womb), we are inundated with conditioning and programming. From our infantile days and beyond, this conditioning is perpetuated and reinforced by our caregivers, peers, teachers, the MSM, marketing and advertising, religious systems and so on. We are programmed at subconscious and unconscious levels about every aspect of our lives; how to be, how to think, how to do, what to believe, what to dismiss, what to pursue, what to prioritise. And because the human mind is much like a computer, these programmes run in the background, out of sight, governing our decision-making and choices; shaping our paradigms; determining how we interact with ourselves and the world. Edward Bernays – often dubbed "the father of PR" – encapsulated the true extent and power of mass programming in his book “Propaganda” (perhaps a pertinent read given the current global climate...):
“We are governed, our minds are moulded, our tastes formed, our ideas suggested, largely by men we have never heard of . . . In almost every act of our daily lives, whether in the sphere of politics or business, in our social conduct or our ethical thinking, we are dominated by the relatively small number of persons who understand the mental processes and social patterns of the masses. It is they who pull the wires which control the public mind.”
So what does all this conditioning and programming look like in practice? Here’s what I call the generalised "blueprint life", broken down step by step:
Pop out the womb into a sterile, clinical hospital environment – much like the birth place of our ancient ancestors! Don't forget, your initiation into the human experience is not complete without a barrage of inoculations and inorganic medicine. Enjoy, little immune system!
Spend the next 10 – 15 years in various educational institutes learning how to be a good, obedient citizen. You will also learn essential skills for life including how to identify an oxbow lake; how to apply Pythagoras theorem; how to spot the rabid sexual appetites of roosters in Chaucer's 'The Nun's Priest's Tale' – basically, everything you need to know to be a balanced, well-adjusted, self-aware young person
Ip-dip-do to select your university studies and determine your career path for the next four decades (at the wise old age of 17). Spend the subsequent 3-4 years living in a perpetual state of adolescence, in total denial about adult responsibilities/life after the charade. Definitely don't smoke weed and self-reflect; that's a recipe for disaster!
Graduate and race to get stuck into the system by finding a steady, respectable job - because that's the adult thing to do, right?
Make like a swan and mate for life! If at first you fail, repeat the search incessantly until a suitable mate is found – because, as Jess Glynne popularised, you’re no one until you’re somebody to some one
Put those co-parenting skills to the test and find yet another reason to ignore your own needs by getting a furry companion. Dogs make for great Insta content!
Get a mortgage - because you're only a proper adult once you've fastened a financial chain around your neck
Pop out a kid (hello MPV!)
Spend the next 40 years working mundane, unfulfilling or desperately taxing jobs that have you ‘living for the weekend’. Numb the monotony and ever-present sense of unease using societally-sanctioned self-medicative substances including (but not limited to) alcohol, caffeine, sugar. Heck, you can even use people. In fact, using other people to avoid and distract from the sense of lack within can be a great coping mechanism. Which leads me nicely on to the next step…
Pop out another kid (because what else is there to do at this point?)
Spend the subsequent years in growing states of turmoil, resentment, bitterness, confusion, apathy – all the while denying it, of course!
Wait until you’re at least 65, with a battered body and broken spirit, before you’re “free” to enjoy whatever time you have left of this incarnation
Die and repeat (unless you happen to use this cycle of suffering as a catalyst for growth in your next life. We can but hope!)
Ok - I'll admit that sounds a little cynical. And it might ruffle a few egos. But it does sound familiar, doesn't it? That's because it's the path that's programmed for us. That's the blueprint we're conditioned to follow. Needless to say, I don’t follow blueprints. I don’t condone blueprints. In fact, let’s burn the fucking blueprint!
Having said all that - if the above life blueprint truly makes your heart erupt with joy, then that's absolutely the path you should follow. But most people are not aware that what they seek and desire in life is being driven by subconscious and deeply unconscious conditioning, programming, wounding and fears. They think they want the blueprint life, because that’s what they’ve been programmed to want. Therefore, the decision-making and drive to pursue this life is not conscious. And it is almost certainly not soul-led.
But here’s the secret they don’t want you to know, folks: there are no rules. There is no set way you should or shouldn’t live. You are a unique, sovereign being; a soul incarnate. Divinity animates the physical form you call you. Why on earth would you settle for a life that feels mundane, monotonous or monochrome to you when you could live a life of vivid, technicolour bliss? Why live on autopilot, governed by unacknowledged psychological and emotional constructs and limitations, when you could live Undefind?
Live outside the box
Undefind Life is an invitation to do things differently. To do things your way. To be accountable for the decisions you make and to ensure that they are in alignment with what you want. No one can give you permission to live the life you want to live – that responsibility falls to you alone. But I am here to remind you that at a soul level, you did not come here to be mundane or to play it safe. You came here to transcend the confines of material conditioning and to realise that beyond the illusions and stories of the mind, you have infinite potential. You are infinitely powerful. You are a light. And the world needs you, in your unapologetic uniqueness, now more than ever.
It’s time to decondition. Deprogramme. Leap outside the box you were assigned - it's a little cramped, don't you think? We came here to remember that we are all expressions of universal oneness; to shed the layers of ego that try to convince us otherwise; to shine our uncompromisable light; and to be transmitters of heaven on earth in order to birth a new earth. Because heaven is not a physical place – it’s a state of being that we can embody and emanate from a heightened state of awareness. That state of being is one of unconditional love, peace and compassion for all things and beings. It's our natural state before the conditioning takes hold. And with the age of Aquarius upon us, it really is the dawn of a new age; a chance to transform our state both individually and collectively. Ready when you are!
Natasha x
This is absolutely brilliant Natasha! Thank you dir writing and sharing it!!!